the things i HAVE to go through.

STILL CAN'T STOP

2006-11-10T19:27:00.000-08:00

well when he came i was really shocked though.they kept pushing him to me.
when he went home i suddenly thought of this song;
A Little Too Late by JoJo.

If you don't know this song,check it out at www.lyricsmania.com

its really nice to listen to.man,i totally froze when he came.i didn't keep eye-contact with him.
i tried so bad.
he has someone else already.

new school computer.news report and class blog.MULTI-TASKING.

2006-11-09T18:01:00.000-08:00

i haven't been blogging for quite sometime,so i'm doing it now..on the new apple computer in school.
no CPU.has PHOTO BOOTH;iPHOTO;iTUNES;MOVIE HD;iCHAT;and an internet browser called SAFARI.((:

right now,sheena asked me to do a bloody news report and change the background of class blog.
hahs.
hahs.
i'm soo happy right now,sheena is having mouth fight with the boys,GOOD LUCK SHEENA.
you know what kind of words come out right?
i'm not gonna right/type the words cause my blog's cleaned.blearh,like real.
heyy i'm a big girl like any other girls in school and has a fair share of WORDS.
farhan is a stupid idiot.and its farhan from school.not another farhan.you know who you are.((:
he asked me what a dilldoe was and i laughed and asked eeka to tell him.wait,is that how you spell dilldoe?
whatever,who the f*** cares anyway.
if you don't know,GROW UP AND CHECK THE BLOODY DICTIONARY.
you need to learn more words hahahs.(;(like as if i do?)
while i'm sorta happy for many reasons i can't explain.
its difficult.
very difficult.
my close friends and family should know.

i seriously don't know why i'm suddenly thinking about japan again.
i miss my friends though alot.
my friends from all over the world.you can't have too many you know.

lets not talk about that now.

i haven't got over her and him yet.
its too weird for them to be acting this way.
she is a totally avoiding me and keeping secrets with her new friend.
him came to my house yesterday with the boys.raya-ing.so its normal.
i really couldn't stop thinking of everything.
him her and his girlfriend.
nothing has gone over this limit.
him was fine but he was like as if he wanted to like be friends.he was kind and the behaved boy at my house.his little adek too.
but its just too weird.in school he treats me as if i'm a creep and outside he's nice.
i guess he didn't want anyone to notice anything.

but i noticed.actually life's weird now a days.
izzat noticed that i was very quiet.
very quiet.,too quiet that he got suspicious.
ahah.

actually i don't like him anymore,i have SOMEONE ELSE IN MIND.

"i'm wondering the strreets,in the world underneath it all."<3

should i call you friend?!..

2006-11-01T18:24:00.000-08:00

humph.humph.humph.

everything is so different now.i'm drifting away from everyone.and not cause we're leaving school so soon.all my friends are even closer.damn it laa.

yeah.yeah.
bloody she and him are like so different.
she treating me like one duff bag.
him an idiot.
there are two him(s) i'm talking about.
one him and the other him.
the other him is totally nice.
the other him total crapp.
that she is so treating me like her duff bag.
she ditched me cause of her "sayang".
i'm talking a different kind of sayang.
sheesh.

i tell her off if i could,i would seriously cut her off.and him too.the crapp one.
she.she.she.she.she.
and plus,i'm not talking about the haikal issue.
another issue that hasn't been settled yet.for more than two years.
she came nice out and came out a total uhh.
i'm like so angry right now.so angry.pissed.pissed.
pissed.
i can say how pissed i am and one blog woldn't be enough.
i tell you.
i want to upload photos but i don't know how too.*flap damn it humph*
she's around,i have to balance my anger,happiness.
see what i mean,my life is so damn different now.
a gang of her own and myself and having my own defenses.
hello.
that girl wants to be everything.and i get ditched off by her everytime she's around.
EVERYTIME.
it gets so f'ed up and in the end she always wins.no one believes me now.they do but not as much.
cause you know why she thinks i'm a big joke.and she can shove me off just like that.THINK AGAIN GIRL.
she can be so unpredictable.
and i thought i was always welcomed when i was with her.
but it turned out to be someone else's decision.
she cried over stuff you should be happy about trying to attract attention.
i'm just happy that school's ending and we can't see each other anymore.

GOODBYE MY FRIEND OR ENEMY?

-TEE.

exhausted.extremely

2006-10-31T17:47:00.000-08:00

not blogging right now.
sorry.
i'm dead exhausted.
i didn't blog for a few weeks.
i promise i'll blog when i get home..

((:

-tee

RAYER WAS SWEET

2006-10-26T03:16:00.000-07:00

rayer was sweet.

but i only collected 60 buckeroos.*boo*
nawhaw.athira collected 900.
WTH.
WTH
WTH
WTH
WTH
WTH.

eeka collected 15 more than me.
lame laa.last year collect 180!
i'm still wondering why it actually increased.ALOT.
*decreased.
i'm so angry now that i don't want to blog.
bye.

*going ice-skating tmrw!

2006-10-20T01:27:00.000-07:00

sorry i think i'll blog later.still doing my template.((:
well,nevermind, can blog for a bit.

soo today was photo day.
six eight went first...(thank god)
then my class.
it was boring.
stood there smile.cheese.smile.
then done.

mother tongue,
cikgu wanted us to do SIVIKS AND MORAL.
but we had to do comic drawing instead...(saved by the bell)!!
then cikgu went up to me and asked,"Rumah dah kemas??Mak selalu kat rumah?!"
i was nodding.no.yes.no.then she said,"cakap betul2 lah,"
she came just to ask me that?*funny*
okay.okay.

now i'm chating with my friends.nabil.athira.
ala.bored,so bye bye.

*never puasa today.i have a damn good reason!

2006-10-15T20:53:00.000-07:00

going,going.going and gone.

yesterday was no different except for when this boy, joshua eng, came into the class.
he's an autistic boy.which means his IQ is much higher then a normal average person's.
coolness.he's in NUS High and a straight A* student.thats a big wow.
okay thats a nevermind.but i mean he's cute.((:
so,we went to class with roxanne,khai and swee ling.omg.
nobody came.then you know what?!?
everyone went for a bloody excursion.which roxanne,khai and me happen not to know.
you know why?!?because that the SANTIAGOE bitch never called us.
which i already know why.because she didn't want us to go.how selfish!
but at least khai didn't go.IN YOUR FACE.you don't get to smooch him.*laughs*i'm certainly very,very EVIIIL.
so we went to the building next door to our class building.the next building in where the ALW centre is.so,khai ask where our class went.

toodles~~

2006-10-14T21:52:00.000-07:00

hey.

hmm. so it so happens that eeka's AKLTG is somehow like my ALW.((:
who knows?maybe its somehow from the same company??!
well yesterday was totally different.
ALW.
roxanne came.khai.izyan.sarah.jemie.and the others..((:
so yeah like usual we went for class.and then khai spilt the coke for buka.
there goes our drinks!IDIOT.

well no new students came at all.llucky!
i didn't get into any trouble..

bu the funny thing was that roxanne wasn't her usual self..
and khai was a total 100% idiot.
well it was fun..*laughs*..

i'm bored.
TOMORROW I'LL BLOG AGAIN!

toodles~~

2006-10-12T23:03:00.000-07:00

heyys.

i'm busy giving people testimonials cause everyone's giving me but i never give them any.*laughs*
so,at least i'm doing it now?!?unless someone objects and don't want one.
stop the crapp.((:

well i had fun super fun at EMPOWER-U.roxanne was there.khai.swee ling.then.there was this new girl her name is uhh i think it was.REBECCA SANTIAGOE DUBLO.what shit?!her name like so damn long and complicated to pronounce.at first i pronounced it like this.REBECCA SANSHAYGOE.But its actually,REBECCA SAN-TEE-AH-GOE.we were listening to danial and his little sister talking and introducing themselves on stage then suddenly that Rebecca pulled me aside and asked me what was Khai's number.i told her off and she went to khai and told him that i scolded her.This is what he said,"Rebecca,i know what Tiara did was hurtful but you need really need to be told off.you want my number?here it is 999-GO TO HELL!"

hahahaha.BUSTED!then,rebecca went off crying her eyeballs out.i was chuckling.okay i admit i'm evil!roxanne brought her hottie-hot-hot boyfriend to the course and we had fun talking.he is nice and has a cute tattoo on his neck (a heart with roxanne's name on it).HOW SWEET!
well after the course we went to cavana for break fast with my mum.((:.i was so damn thirsty i ordered 2 cups of coke.REFRESHING!.LARGE CUPS BTW.roxanne's a muslim btw.again.
well,it turned out great.and next year i'll be teaching the composition course for ALW.with roxanne again.LIKE ALWAYS.((:! i will teach the lower primary course that is $$1000/course.
i went for mine but i paid $$1500 cause of th Empower-U.((:
heheks.and that this boy,Micheal Mifts,a new young teacher well the same age as me will be my mentor.cause he started the course earlier.) :
and he's hot.M-I-C-H-E-A-L M-I-F-T-S!

and i think thats enough for the day and the night before..((:

toodles~~

2006-10-09T22:27:00.000-07:00

harllo.BOOOO YAHHH..!!!??

i'm done with my last paper and i can go happy-happy!!whatever that really means?
my mum said this when i asked her whether i can go out with izzat this friday,"Puasa lah darling,not good you know to go out.."

HELLO.BACK TO EARTH,she forgot that i finished PSLE and i have the right to have fun!
nevermind.tahan my anger.=)
now for hari raya news.i'm alone for raya!i have no groupie to go with.well,raimi ajak tapi kris's sis doesn't want me to go so FORGET IT!
*sobs*
nevermind..i don't think i want to raya anymore.my dad won't be around for it so i should be going out..
hurhur..
okay now for school..
PSLE IS OVER AND DONE WITH!
YEAH BABE!!!

amira wanted to get drunk!

2006-10-08T22:44:00.000-07:00

i'm back after PSLE.*laughs*

i really want to go out now.get my life on the roll again.so this friday i'm going out with izzat to get a new shirt.a shirt.a black and red striped shirt.nice tatse cause he's an emo.like syafiqah.=)
finally i can actually go out!yay!

stop the crap.back to earth.*laughs*
i miss him alot but too bad he went steady with afiqah already.*sobs*
i can't tell him how i feel anymore.
well now i'm watching A Killer Upstairs.just to pass the time away.

i feel like going ice-skating again.but mum won't take me.. *boo*
i begged her and begged her and the answer was always,"wait,darling.finish PSLE first."
i asked her again,then she said,"okay,but later".
then,it continued to be,"okay,but later"
she can't stop singing the same song can she??the same rhythym?!?

i school that fucking leon couldn't stop calling me flat-chest.and you want to know who taught him that?that bloody QEEM.

i want a fucking bloody dog-t?!?
my mum bought me one,but i lost it.it cost $30$
that expensive.
nevermind,i'll maybe get a new one when i go out with izzat.
can't wait.we're going city hall,but i might object!??
maybe i might take someone with me,danial??or kris??
or i don't know..
there's soooo many choices,
i'm pestering my mum to give me 30 buckeroos but she said she might give me.PLEASE GOD.
if i bring a girl,then we can go crazy with neos.
if izzat?!?i dunnoe.

2006-09-13T02:41:00.000-07:00

i wonder would you forgive someone who broke your heart twice.FOR SOMEBODY ELSE.yup.somebody else.his heart WAS never for you.it was for someone else.someone he liked.why didn't he just tell me.then wanna lie some more.CONSIDERED THAT SHITTIFIED.hah.learned that from my fellow motivators.ouh too bad if you don't know who that is.well i have six new motivators.+ ONE MORE.+ ONE MORE.
-RACHELLE.
-DAMIAN.
-KHAIRUL.
-SIEW LING.
-ASHIDIQ.
-ROXANNE.
-MAHARAH.
-SYAFIQAH
yup.six.well they said boys like him are considered labeled SHITTIFIED.haha.thought that was ,kinda funny though.x ).hahahas.i can't help it.and i thought he was good but he's the worst.*sobs*.
well maharah doesn't really know who they are.SECRET I'VE KEPT FOR A LONG TIME.
all of you will know now.don't give a damn.hah.its about something else.DON'T WANNA CARE ANYTHING ABOUT HIM ANYMORE.

roxanne rocks.she's got a bloody modelling job.not fair!hah.her studies are quite good so whats the difficult part of her getting the job?!i can't seem to find out the difficult part.*humph*times two.
and she is gorgeous of cause.like d-uhhhh.
well i just met damian.he's a nice guy.roxanne told me about him.so i went to talk to him.he sounded nice.well he counsels kids like me.and a motivater too.wait not kids.PRETEENS.
heheks.
rachelle is a college student.and she's one of the best motivators so far.she understands girls like me.she doesn't want me to tell anyone about her and her e-mail addie.but i'm telling your right now.
she's hot and clever.but already has her partner.=)
wait i just got something from damian and this is what he said.

Damian says:
try to find good points in ur life

Damian says:
and concentrate on that.

well yeah.thats kinda easy to understand.hah.
i wanna put my taggie now.

tell me. turn and increase your speed.

2006-09-12T20:04:00.000-07:00

heyy.yoohoo.

i am kinda happy.not so.but i got 232 for my PRELIMS.i consider it bad but maybe some of you are dreaming for it.=)
i wonder how much he got?
hah.hope he didn't fail.athira accompanied me during recess.she gave something to AMAR.which i'm not supossed to know about.*sobs*

and something else happened..cause of PSLE.AT LEAST HE THINKS ABOUT EXAMS.good boy.hah.i think he wants to get his priorities straight.then after PSLE we'll go back together.

*i guess* really i don't know.YUP.MY LIFE'S CRUSHED FOR THE SECOND TIME IN A ROW.
well i still don't know if i should ask him to the bbq partay.inviting the others but.maybe i'll invite him but i'm not going.yeap.I AM NOT GOING.maybe i'll just give yong foo the bloody 20 bucks and just see whats going on.then i'll go.On second thought maybe i will go.just for the sake of seeing my friends and him again..

we might not be together anymore so i think i should.hah.

i still like him though.=D..
yes i admit but i don't know.there's things that time can never erase.
now,i'm trying to stop thinking bout him.

NABIL THAT IDIOT!nevermind i forgive him for blaming me.i didn't say anything.

SO MUCH TO DO,
SO LITTLE TIME.

2006-09-12T17:25:00.000-07:00

heyy.

okay i'm doing some reconfigurations to my blog cause i don't know why "LOVE SYAF" CAME OUT AT THE SIDE OF MY BLOG.hah.WEIRD.eh.you know what?do you about the webmessenger?its like bloody cool.hah.so if you don't have an MSN Messenger,you can also use the web one.way,way much easier.

and yeah ITS 28 MORE DAYS TO PSLE.primary school leaving examinations.
WTF.yeah what the ****.

okayy now about life and school.me and him are okay now.he said he didn't know what i was talking about.i don't know if he meant that but i thought he was lieing.hah.well you know guys like him are easy to trust.=).well its true right?!?

i love being a senior...and I AM GOING TO MISS IT.ALOT.

2006-09-11T17:22:00.000-07:00

dear me.yup.dear me.

its just my luck.JUST MY LUCK.
why does my life ave to be like that.i already had him.then i have to loose him again!
he doesnt want to talk to me doesn't want to listen to what i say and I DON'T KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN.

have to go now.

2006-09-08T04:30:00.000-07:00

okayy.second post for the day.second.right.CRAPP.

today is so on the verge of close to not liking it.NOT ENJOYING IT.NOT LIKING IT.fight with people today.hah.syafiqah came to the rescue.WONDER WOMAN.(laughs)okay.second CRAP.i sat with amalina today.not SYAFIQAH.but amalina is okayy.eight on the scale of ten?!?=)no offence.
tell me why shahrul had to cause trouble.HE REALLY HAD TOO.WHY?!?my life's wrecked thanks to Shahrul and Yann."thanks so much.."IDIOTS.really lah why are they even living on earth.might as well go to MARS.okayy enough about school.

you know what?I'M WATCHING CROC HUNTER.i really miss steve irwin.GREAT GUY.great guy.
he died cause got his heart punctured by a stingray's barb.reall OF ALL ANIMALS??the sting ray.
i thought the crocs or maybe the sharks.hah.his daughter is a host of her own show.at eight?i was dreaming of doing it when i was eight.XD.you would laugh.but okay.hahahahas.i think people are suppose to put a turtle in their MSN or something.in respect of MR STEVE IRWIN.MR CROC HUNTER.A WORLD KNOWN MAN.i salute you.hope your happy where you are and enjoying to be around with souls of animals in heaven.GOD BLESS YOU.

okayy now.i actually went to the KIDS CENTRAL LIVE at the SINAGPORE INDOOR STADIUM.i saw the SI.uh huh uh huh.HADY ROCKS.yup.i was sad when PAUL TWOHILL was out.aww.i tell you he has a bright future ahead.yup.i wonder what he looks like after NS.really different.really really different.shaved head.hah.

have you heard about a baby making machine?hah.heard in on the travel&living channel.ouh.its about a man who has 50 wives.F-I-F-T-Y.ouh its a tribe in NOUGIELA.exactly no idea where that part of the world is??

now's 1950 and its raining heavily.looks like is gonna rain all night.YAHOO BABY.its gonna be a cold night.now the weather-forecasting is ended.or is it has?okay whatever.

LOVE SYAFIQAH TO BITS AND PIECES.SHE ROCKS MY WORLD...

2006-09-08T04:20:00.000-07:00

The stupid bengkel is indeed stupid.i tell you.i won't be so mean.but its true.SO.SO TRUE.but sitting next to SYAFIQAH.WAS GREAT.she's REALLY NICE.hah.

Let me tell you what happened today.TODAY.it sucked.so SUCKED.

number one.fought with haikal.messed up sooo bad.